i realized that i am in fact quite fortunate at each stages of life.. other den in primary sch.. i had a close group of friends in sec sch, jc, and uni.. it's not really nice being a loner actually.. its like no one will be with u in lectures or tutorial.. and when u join some group suddenly.. it seem so weird .. coz its like u only know them on e surface and u hope to know them more but it seem like they are not opening up or u are not opening up..

in primary sch.. i am like group-hopper.. like ppl say job-hopper..haha.. no fix group and i go around to different groups and all.. p5 and p6 maybe a bit better.. got a small group.. but it seems no one is opening up to anyone.. den everyone stranger to everyone.. and it seems better alone with some other group..

in sec sch.. i got yeehui yanni meiling and qinying.. this time round.. it's better den previous group.. can feel that i actually bonded with them closer.. we may be in group of 5.. but there will sometimes be like 3 or 2 right.. and it seems to be changing everytime..haha.. i remember sec1 i am closer to yn.. den slowly change to yh ml.. den to qy.. haha.. now to yh.. so it's actually such a funny thing..

in jc.. i had suru, wanchi, asyikin.. suru is actually from yh's class and i dunno her until jc.. wanchi is my primary sch friends from 1 of e groups.. and i know asyikin through wc.. well.. also same lor..it's split to 2-2.. me with sr and wc with asyikin.. not much shuffling though..

now in uni.. it happened that me wc and asyikin got into e same course in ntu without discussing at all.. and i can really feel that in year1sem1 i am closer to wc den asyikin but i can say in year1sem2.. i am much closer to asyikin den wc..but there is no feeling of awkwardness when there is nothing to say and both of us were sitting together.. this is how i know good friends should really feel.. comfortable with each other..hmm..

i am fortunate..haha