When there's an expectation for something.. and time after time its just disappointment that is obtained.. i kinda lost the hope in it anymore..

And when the expectation is fulfilled only after it's requested.. the feeling of happiness is not the same as when the expectation is fulfilled without requesting.. although the feeling of happiness is there.. its juz not on par anymore..

And its hard acting some feelings or some person that i am not.. it just eats me from inside..