"i just feel tt if she's concern abt our marks then she should juz help us. no pt sayin all those things . not helping at all. juz demoralising us"

This reach me by sms.
By mistake
But its not for me.
In fact e "she" in e conversation in me.

this sms ruin my mood after watching ratatouilie yesterday.. asyikin was smsing wc after e movie.. but she send wrongly and reach me instead.. immediately my heart sank when see this sms.. what did i say that is wrong? what demoralising them? and i didnt help meh?

well.. it happened after getting 2 tests paper back.. they didnt do as well as i thought they would as i kinda expect they will do well.. so wat did i say ..
well.. i said " what happened to u guys? i thought u 2 say e test was okie and in fact.. asyikin.. i think u freak out during test and forgot a lot of things.. u are giving urself too much stress.. and what i dun understand in that u guys study a lot lor.. before e test, u guys sleep at 2+ am and i sleep at 10.30 lor.. and i didnt finish studying also.. maybe u guys should change e way of studying if it is not effect..."

i wasnt planning to demoralise them.. but to give an alternative to them.. and want i said i dont thing is wrong..well..
so i juz replied " in e 1st place i am not trying to demoralise u guys.. but to help by saying u can try a alternative.. i am juz saying what i think.. if u think i am trying to demoralise u .. den juz tell me straight in e face that u dun like what i am saying.. den i will juz shut up.. its not like i am will not. in fact.. u are e one who is demoralising me when everytime u say u didnt study finish when everything ur e one who study most.. and in fact its getting to me.. that why i say dun say those stuff le.. its getting to urself..if u didnt plan to fail.. e more u will fail.. and when did i didnt help u guys? everything i ask .. u guys say ok what.. and ur supposed to ask me if u dunno.. and not i asking u guys everytime.. and in e selfish way.. if i help u guys all e time.. i dun have e time for myself le"

yet to send it to her.. she send me.." i hope u understand how both of us r feeling. we r sad enuf getting low marks. we dun wanna argue or fight becos of ths. hope u understand"
e sms after it.." ya i admit i tend to grumble ant havent study but actually i got study one. maybe not effectively. yes i agreed u ve been helping us in many ways n that i thank u juz that at times. i gotta think twice abt asking u qn coz my qn seems too east for u and sometimes juz e way u say things la.. but i know u will eventually help. and yes i still have a lot doubts regarding MO . gotta read notes".

that's what getting to me "i gotta read notes more"
that's aint e only one in e 5 sms she send me. and its after tests
finally get to e main point. e way i say things..

i send e 1st sms to wc too in case she also feels e same way..she reply" hmm.. juz wanna add on e bit la.. juz that sometimes e tone or e way u say it , to us it sound demoralising but prob that not how u meant it to be. sometimes it not we dun wanna ask but i think is e tone again e way sometimes explain things sound a but impatient that why we dun dare to ask more."

same. the way i say things.

sometimes.. its juz e expectation that i had for them.. that they should know it since it is so easy.. or at least they should get it e 1st time i explain.. not asking me to explain again and again.. its e same like i sms someone to go out.. i expected them to reply whether they want not.. and thats a big problem with my class s2. they totally dun reply one..

my mother say she know i got this problem.. it's link to my temper .. controlling of temper and i am very hot temper...she say last time she got talk to yn yh ml before and they also know i got this bad characteristic.. and my mother even apologised.. but yn say "aiya.. used to it le..friends friends nvm lor.." haha.. in fact i think right.. i change a lot le.. if it is in sec sch that asyikin and wc meet me.. its even worst..

well.. both person juz end with " we juz talk things out k? no bad feeling" or "what past is past ,we're still good friends" What e point.. ya u said that.. but inside u izzit really like that think meh.. i dun think so.. to me.. a barrier formed is a barrier formed.

today got lab .. they act normally.. but i juz try to keep silent as much i can.. tmr we are going out after tutorial.. i am not going to say much.. or at least.. with studies stuff.. will see how den.. if tmr we are getting back another paper.. i shall not ask them their score or say anthing.. juz gonna ZIP my mouth..

can't wait for my recess week.. i can stay away from them for a while.. not going to be e one who ask them out.. let them do e job now...